Thanks for the encouragement.....Sometimes it feels soooo hard and soooo hopeless.....and other times, I feel empowered. It's such a rollercoaster.

I am happy to report that I cut the front and back lawn!! WOO HOO!!! This may seem insignificant to some people, but this is an accomplishment for me....and it's one of the things that was causing me some anxiety over the last few days....

So....whew! BUT, I realized that it's a lot of work....and I can't imagine being out there in hot weather. Luckily it was only in the 60's today. Perfect lawn cutting temperature....and I was able to handle it. But if it was in the 80's...NO way.....

I know I am thinking too far ahead and agonizing over something so minor....but it makes me miss having my husband around.....and it makes me think of the good things about him. There ARE good things....like how he scratched my back almost every single night....and told me how beautiful I am every day.....how he kept a very clean house, practically at all times, due to his OCD....GRRR....WHY do I feel like this sometimes???