Debbie, I don't know how you handle it all!!!

It's true that I need to build some self-confidence and take one step at a time. I was so thrilled that the lawn was done, but instead of continuing to relish in the feeling of that accomplishment, I started to worry about how many more times that chore was going to need to be done - all.summer.long....I have to stop doing that! It is an unhealthy way to think and feel!!

Unfortunately, I don't believe there will be any improvement in my marriage. Even my T feels that it would take years of therapy for him....because at this point, he is so far gone, so unaware and mentally unstable.

Even if he "fixes" his issues....I don't want to take the risk of learning that his old patterns make a comeback. The risk is too big, especially when it comes to our daughter who is at such an impressionable age.

In the meantime, I am trying to stay positive...not easy to do....and I am going to therapy....