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a......yeah sannah, bead went so her could have sumfin to eat NOT cuz we wanted to your right and we did not look at it that way till you pointed it out............like beads prolly would of declined if not for the fact to eat the fish that don caught.......at THEIR house grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
yeah,,,,,,,we is going to food pantry today......it is so embarassing to
go to these places but dunno what else to do need Sumfin to eats
and, yeah supposedly B talked to j a bout her yellin but it did not do much good even said sumfin while bead there but still no good and he yells too so do the kids all they know how to do is yell at each other and j Is starting therapy......not for her yelling tho for using drugs but hopefully they'll get to that issue eventually
Nancy (alter) tried to talk to don about all of this afterward...........did not really get any kind of a response as in no answer, nuthin, nada..........it dont
help matters when he does not answer us when we talk to him......like hullo
were trying to talk to you bout somehiting important dunno iffen ya even heared us?????sooooooooooo sick of THAT
yeah.....like keeping her mouth shut and/or doing what was expected of her or sked of her whether her wanted to do it or not was all a part of saying safe when we was younger. not that it did much good but we did try.
errrrrr..yeah we usually never knew when or where the next blow or the angry words were going to come from either.......and thanks for sharing all that you are so cool mEsO.......so anyway like remember times.....they put beads in this dance calss thing for handicap kids (hated it sucked rotten stinky foo foo eggs) and like had to put on a dumb show end of ever year so one year beads did awful and got home dad pushed her down the basement steps with the braces on her legs and crutches and all we went a tumbling downnnnnnnnn cuz did not do good enuf ( this was after he yell at her and lectured on way home in car about ...not TRYING hard enuf.was he daft!!!1111111 we alway give 100% everything we does ALWAYS)...stupid son of a siberian sapsucker!!!!!!! hates the stupid doctor what telled them to put her in this too because he said would make her legs grow rite.grrrrrrrrrrrrr......
nuthing beads ever did was ever good enuf for anybody and it hurt so bad.......the helluv it is were still not good enuf for anybody.thje only thing that her does good at all is her beadwork....everything else for s hit..........not good enuf for don nuthing ever is he always has a comment about weell you could of sor should of done this or that
F You.....dont anybody get it we are trying our best as hard as we possibly can and we is so sick and tired of not being good enuf for anybody
what is so wrong with us???????????? why wont someone just love beadys and accept us how we are?????!!!!!!!! are we THAT awful?????? is that asking so much?????????
mary