manda, i can't say that i know exactly what is going on with you but it kinda sounds like something they call derealization or depersonalization.

i know you are in a difficult place right now and you are struggling inside.

please keep writing in and i know people here will support you while you figure it out. sometimes things just get extra hard or extra weird, but i do think it will settle down in a while and you will not feel like slow motion an like you are out of sync with yourself. hang in there, ok? hugs,

leslie and her pixies