I haven't been here recently, and I have noticed some improvement.
I still wonder if I should consider talking to someone specifically about OCD. I shared it with my psychiatrist and she upped my Cymbalta dosage to help with the anxiety. But I just don't want to sugarcoat the problem. I want to deal with it and get rid of it. I'm still with my bf and really want to grow closer to him. The thoughts don't occur as much as they did before my meds increased, but they still occur from time to time. It's like, if I get aroused, it's almost like I'm asking myself what it is that's arousing me...geez why can't this just go away. It rips at the core of my very existence. I feel so abnormal and lonely sometimes. I know who I am deep down and that this is not me.