Auro, I hear ya. In my case I have both past abuse and adhd. I am really glad I was able to treat my adhd symptoms first...then start dealing with the other stuff. I think I managaed the ADHD well without meds because I had developed good coping skills just living with it. But when other areas of my life fell apart and triggered the trauma cycle, I couldn't manage everything and dug myself a whole. In getting Tx for my ADHD, I was able to regain some much needed focus in order to then work on the other issues. At this point, I've kind of gotten things rebalance. I just saw my pdoc and I'm planning to start lowering my adderall dose gradually. My goal is to return to med free management by the end of the summer. I just feel like I could do it before, now I know a lot more about what is going on with me. If I keep the stress level low, my fitness level stable, I should be able to manage my hyperactivity OK. If it doesn't work out...then I'll just re-assess and go from there.
I will say this... This week in T when I was talking about my trauma symptoms especially the hyperarousal state. My T mentioned, well this is likely even more pronounced in you because of the ADHD. I just looked at her and said, thanks for understanding that.
I recommend that you keep asking for a med trial. Adderall is now available generic..so why don't they let you try it. You will know within a week if it is helpful or not.
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