blossom.....perhaps instead of grieving..its time to celebrate and honor the loved ones you've lost.....here are some ideas.....make a small gift to a charity that they may have supported, donate a book to the library in their name, plant a tree, plant a small garden with a plant for each and give yourself a place to go and be happy instead of sad,....write one of your beautiful writings and put it in the local paper in their honor....volunteer a little time to a cause that they might support......just some thoughts..i hope that you feel better soon.....