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Apr 30, 2009, 11:09 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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TreeHouse...
I was doing some reading on PTSD, sitting at my computer, and literally, all the voices that have been in my head for so long... the one's I thought were just me being crazy... they just started to introduce themselves to me. Only a handful came out over the course of 24 hours. Some gave me their names and presented themselves as pictures in my head, some would only tell me their roles. I was very scared because I didn't know what was going on, or why my head was actually all of the sudden talking directly to me, instead of just talking over me like they always had before. I really thought I was losing it.
I was so scared about it, I couldn't even bring myself to talk to my T about it because A) I was scared she was going to have me committed, immediately, B) I was kind of embarrassed, and C) I was being told by a couple alters to keep my mouth shut. I ultimately made a short video for her on my computer and asked her to watch it after our session.
It's taken a few months, but I have been able to communicate with most of my alters to a certain degree and I am aware of their names now. I question whether there are more...sometimes my behavior and perceptions change and I can't pin-point which alter is "out" at that time.
It's a process that is different for everyone. Hope this was helpful!! 
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