I'm okay this morning... I cried though

I was in the midst of doing breakfast club when - again -Nancy wrote to me on msn. She had some lovely words to say

"How is your alcoholic mother ****** has she drunk herself to DEATH YET!! DROP DEAD ******!!!!"

Heh. Ouch. In that moment, people were talking. My hand flew to my mouth and I let out a loud gasp. Everyone turned to look at me and said "what?" I couldn't speak. My eyes were welling up and I squeaked "Oh My God... How could anyone be so harsh? Say such nasty things?!" Emily, one of the girls stood there said "who's said what, Kirst?" Ellee said "You look like you're about to cry..."
Next thing I knew, I said "I am" and burst into tears.

Eeeeeeek! Ellee ran around to the kitchen where I was stood and grabbed me,pulling me into a big hug. I sobbed so loud even the receptionist turned to look at me. Emily read the message and banged her fist on teh breakfast bar.. "Right. That is IT!!! This is the one that 'has breast cancer', right?"
"umm. Yeah.."
"The ******. I've had enough of her s--t! She's given you enough hassle as it is, you don't deserve any of this Kirst. I'm gonna have words with her as soon as I can. She won't get away with it. I'm gonna be in my room all day if you need me, okay?"
"yeah.. Thanks Em"

Taz had also read it and she was fuming too. I thought Taz hated me, but this morning she'd been really nice to me and chatty with me and now she was being sympathetic too. It was a nice surprise.

Abi came down to breakfast club and said "Kirst, d'you wanna meet a bit earlier?"
"yeah, sure... I think it'd be the best idea."
"Are you okay? You look a bit... Phlurgh."
"No. I don't think anyone would be okay after having this message"
I showed her my phone and she was livid.
"Right. Were going to sort this out once and for all. I've had enough of her. This is the 28 year old, yeah?"
"yeah"
"Okay. Uhmmm. D'you wanna go for a coffee, so we can have a chat about it and stuff, get out in the sun for a bit too?"
"Oooooh. Please! I could do with a coffee and a bit of sunshine."

So we went and had a coffee and decided we're getting in contact with CEOPS today to get this sorted out. Just can't believe so many people saw me cry! But they were all nice about it.

Just. I don't get it. Why are people so damned horrible?! Even Charlene got angry this morning when she asked me to pass her the juice so I did, then when I got back to the opposite side of the counter, she asked me for a glass which was right next to where the juice had been, so I just said to her "Charlene,if you want a glass you can get up and get it yourself" i can't do everything for you, I'm doing the toast and stuff for everyone else!" I didn't shout, just sounded exasperated... So she said; "Oh for f--k's sake, Kirsten. Cheer up, it might never happen! God... Be grumpy like you f--king always are".

Pff. Ellee had a go at her for being so nasty and getting stressed out over such stupid things. I'm glad Ellee understands why I'm not happy a lot. I said to Ellee after she read what Nancy said after Charlene had stormed off, "If she read that message, maybe then she'd understand why I'm grumpy. I don't need her s--t. I'm sick of it. She gets stressed out over nothing. It's ridiculous. I don't deserve her s--t anymore. I won't stand for it"

Ellee said "You're right, Kirst. I won't stand for it. If she gets all stressy with me I have a go at her for it and tell her to stop being so stressy over nothing. She's the grumpy one, not you. She needs to take her own advice for once and smile."

heh. I knew Ellee in school, but never really spoke to her much. So her being so understanding and nice about it was really helpful

I just. Hm. I don't feel so good why are some people so nasty?