Last week, I found my Vicodin my husband hid from me. so i took 3 of them. I swore off of them but i gave in. i have 9 months of clean time with alcohol why can't have clean time with pain pills? It's like when I know I have them i get all paniky and anxious. Ugh. I even went without taking any xanxs for my panic disorder just to take that damn stupid vicodin. Now I am ashamed. I have overcome meth, coke, alcohol, and acid. Why not pain pills? I mean if i can get addicted on pain meds then why not xanax? I don't even like to take them.Sometimes a month script of xanax willo last me longer than a month. But if I was getting 60 vicodon a month they would be gone in less than a week. WHY? I guess when I think about it I like the feelings of pain meds. I don't have all the pain in my neck from my injury and i feel energetic. xanax makes me tired and sleepy.