I've not shown her that it's getting to me, no way. I haven't answered her in any way. She won't get away with it, though. She can't. No-one will let me drop it.

I know, Sannah, I know... I just find it hard, that's all. I can let the stuff with Charlene go, that doens't bother me so much.

I'm trying to let the helpful people outweigh the nasty, but when I've got to think more about the nasty people because of going to the police and everything, it's kinda hard. But I'm getting there. I hope.

I've just had a difficult day. I've been stressed out because I was worrying about Mum and upset about what Nancy said about my Mother. No-one has any right to say that about my Mother. Not even me.

I'm in so much pain because of all the tension and stress building up. This morning, I just couldn't hold back the tears anymore. It was nice to have a hug. It was even better to know that people I thought hated me, actually want to help me... It's nice to know that they'll look out for me and stick around if/when I need them. It was nice to cry and not feel like I complete idiot, and be standing there whilst everyone looked at me like I was weird or something. It was nice to have people get angry about it for me.

So many nice things... not all of them neccessarily good things like the getting angry and stuff, but I think people have finally started to realise that they need to ease off on me a little. That I do need my bit of time to get upset and stuff. I don't feel much less tense and like I'm holding things back than I did before, but a little is good enough. It's better than my normal nothing at all, right?

I'm really tense today, I think it's the anxiousness and such. Just. Yeah. Ummm. I posted on the forum that I met her on and that she's been banned from and quite a few people replied saying how nasty it was and how little I deserved that kinda s--t. That was nice too. Even people who didn't know me said I seemed caring and that I didn't deserve it and such. Let's just hope this can be sorted out properly.

Abi said I'm strong anough to deal with it, I'm not so sure... But in a way I'm glad she's spitting all the s--t at me, because I know that I can do something about it and get her sorted out once and for all. I can't stand it anymore. Not like I thought I could. No. Not anymore.