I did something similar with two ex-best friends. I had one best friend from Kindergarten, she moved away with the military but we kept in contact as pen-pals. We were best friends, I shared everything with her. But then when I got to high school age I decided I was "better" that that, too old for a pen pal, so I just quit responding to her letters. She kept sending me letters but I stopped writing back. She sent me a wedding invitation a few years later, and I never responded. Now...I feel so bad. I wish I could go back and at least say I'm sorry so she would know why I quit writing back.

Then there was another friend that I was best friends with in elementary school, but once we got to high school I again felt like I was somehow "better" than her, and I didn't hang out with her anymore. But in her case - she tracked me down on Facebook a while ago, and we have been chatting and catching up. She is going through an eating disorder so we can relate in some ways - she's anorexic, I'm a binge eater / compulsive overeater that doesn't purge. Two opposite ends, but the same feelings of worthlessness. She has opened up a lot about her past. I still feel horrible for the way things went, but it's nice to have her back.

Anyway...it sucks how the past comes back to bite us in the arse, huh? But there's nothing you can do about the past - just live for the future.