HA! Wrote out a bunch of stuff then thought WHY? WHY write that...i know it, no need for you to know it. Ugly ugly and not ok. No it is not!

Wish there was a place to talk about r.a. Can't do it to you! Wish i could find someone else who was there with me and who recognizes my words, acts, scenes, nightmares.

Think i'm gonna end therapy...too tired to try (AGAIN) to find right therapist who gets it. Then what?

Wish i could go to hospital and right specialist but can't even if i could find them. Hubby has a new job and no leave, m-i-l sick, daughter needs supervision. My head is either noisy busy or silent blah. Happy? HA!

So tired of this dance.