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i think sessions tend to vary in their intensity. sometimes we do deep work and other times we need to step back a bit and regain our sense of serenity. i think we all have our own sense of rhythm that works for us and it doesn't have to look like anyone else's. some are tortoises and some hares. i'm a hare.

you're fed up but it's okay. you've probably taken a whole lot of crap from people for a very long time and your lid has finally blown itself off. trust me i hear ya as i've done the same thing. learning to stand up for myself has been a very uneven and difficult process which i wonder if i'll ever master. i hate getting mad but i'm finally realizing i can't hold everything inside and just accommodate others. i think it takes time to learn how to communicate effectively without squashing our own needs or blowing our lids or just avoiding people (i've perfected that last one). it's even harder when you haven't had healthy communication skills role modeled before. be patient with yourself okay. you can apologize for your recent outbursts and tell them you didn't mean to get so angry at them.