i don't have contempt for it, nor am i unwilling to investigate, but it seems difficult still. i think maybe i have issues with the fact that something/one is looking down on us - i just can't see it. and if there is a greater power i can't reconcile it with wanting us to be happy when i see so much horror in the world. sorry, but there it is.

but so far my quitting alone is going ok - and i wish you luck too xx