My four year old has quite a personality and he requires constant attention. He is very smart, active, and outgoing. When he is good he is really good, but when he is having an off day he is very hard to deal with. I try time out and the 123 Magic child method and it does not really work with him. My firstborn was always a very quiet mellow child and I waited eight years to have my now 4 yr old. Not to sugarcoat it, but I love my son very much I just don't really like him sometimes. When he is having one of his meltdowns, especially in public I just want to disappear or run away. Lately I have lost my temper and yelled really loud at him and he starts to cry. I feel like such a bad mom giving in to the adult temper tantrum and losing control momentarily like that. Any mom's out there at their wits end. Any good parenting books I can read for children with my son's personality. Help.....