Sometimes I don't handle it all like my war to get the manufacturer to stand behind my unreasonable electric bill because of the bad compressor that came in the heat pump unit....which went on for 4 months during the winter & $2300 in electric bills. Not only am I fighting or them to be fair now that I finally got the compressor installed, but I am fighting with the electric company because they want all their money right now....I have already paid $1000 of it....there just isn't the money & they just kept turning off my electricity because they were being jerks. I finally forced them to deal with it so I could have a chance to resolve the issue with the manufacturer & not have to fight the electric company on top of them.

Ready to get my baseball bat out & beat up a few heads at this point.....& that doesn't even include the person who installed the system & all the grief he's been giving me by not getting me the information I need to fight my war (way too much like my husband, so I have no patience with that jerk). Long story about the conversation when I told him off yesterday.

Yes, you just have to fucus on the moment & what you have to handle....sometimes a list of things helps to you can write them down & let them go from your mind.....the less clutter the better...lol.

You will be wise to listen to your therapist & your logic about not going back to your husband.....if you got to the point where you have had enough now.....you will only get to that point quicker if you ever would go back....better never to go back than to get in a cycle of going back & leaving all the time.....stick to your wisdom & don't let your heart get in there & try to trick it into doing the wrong thing.

Keep the positive going & knowing you are doing the right thing.

Please feel ok to PM me if you are ever feeling the need for any extra moral support....I will always be glad to be here for you. I know how much it helps sometimes when those thoughts of wondering if you are right come sneeking back in......or self doubt that you can do it hit.

You are strong & you will be able to make it on your own....it's just getting into the pattern of handling everything & feeling comfortable alone & in that position after having someone who you depended on for many years (even if you really weren't able to depend on him, it wasn't that you didn't keep trying & there were at least a few things you could depend on).

I know you will do great once you settle into being alone....I am just a PM away if you need support more than through a thread,
Debbie