But i do know that he has held me back from alot of things that made my life happy, i have been into art since i could pick up a pencil but he has held this back from me and tells me i can only do artwork of what he wants and from this i get no inspiration and have given up on it. I used to be very good at it and got alot of awards but now i have no drive to touch a paintbrush again. I also left college because he said i should spend all my time with him not studying. I dont want to be working where i am right now all my life, i know i could do something amazing i could feel it, like invent something that changes things but im held back from that. I cant see my friends when i want to he guilts me out of it, including my twin sister all he does is bad talk her. I just wish i had some sort of sign that i should end it now