DocJohn,
I don't think you were wrong as you say at the end. I think you put complete trust in her and fell in love deeply. I know that when I fall in love I become blind to some things about the other person and I think that's very human. We see all their greatness. Love and chemistry somehow can make things seem different and in our minds they are as we see them (usually pretty wonderful). I mean I saw glimses of the things that were not going right at times but then chose to trust over it all. I was guilty of trusting and loving and trying to see the beauty. I don't know if I'm making sense....just speaking on what I feel happened with me.

You have every right to be angry, too. Your trust was betrayed. She was not upfront with you and not totally honest, she shirked her responsibility to the committment, and acted in a selfish, uncaring manner (seeing someone else at the same time) toward you. I really hope that you will put your need to heal ahead of her now. I say that because I know that you trusted her and were let down bad. I think it's a good idea for you to take care of #1 and feel and do what you need to in order to grieve this. I hope you will take your own time in grieving this, too, as I know that's important. Maybe even take a vacation (?) sometime to somewhere nice where you can just let yourself feel whatever you feel. (I used to take mini vacations or one tank trips just to get away when I was in college) Hope you will keep "talking" about it here, too. Take care, CQ

<font color=orange>"I must lose myself in action,
lest I wither in despair." Lord Tennyson</font color=orange>