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Old May 02, 2009, 06:21 PM
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I'm sorry if this should go elsewhere, I'm just not sure where.

I mentioned this in the other post thunderbear made about anger, but I would really like some input on what's going on with me.

In the past 10 days or so there has been a dramatic change in the way I'm thinking and feeling about other people and situations occuring around me. My mind has a comment about everything, from just when I'm in a shop and someone is walking slowly infront of me and the thought will be 'Does this person want to p*** me off' to anything like when one of my colleagues does not say thank you or please to me and in my head there is thoughts of, well shouting of, 'Put them in their place, they have no right to speak to anyone like that, what makes them special that they can get away with being so rude'.

I know these are just thoughts, and it's normal, but it doesn't seem so normal to me, when I've never been like this. More likely than not I'm normally so focused on just getting away from people or keeping quiet that I couldn't care what they say or do to me.

I have come off effexor and I did temporarily start remeron, but I've quit that too, I guess that could have an effect. But the only time when I was off meds before, was 2 years ago and I was not like this then.

I'm even getting angry at my family, they only have to say a couple of sentences and I'll start having thoughts of telling them to shut up because I don't care.

It's making me hate myself more. I'm not an angry person, I don't like anger and I can't deal with it other than s/h to take the anger out on myself.

So really what I'd like to ask is, just opinions on what you guys think is going on, where I should go from here, any ideas to help me?

I do have a social worker I talk to (but no therapy, long story), but I'm sort of not really seeing him at the moment, same with my psychiatrist.

Thank you for reading!