Yeah, I actually used to deal with episodes very similar to anxiety attacks where I would really lose control of my mind. Sometimes I just had to lay down and put myself to sleep to get out of them. Sometimes I would do things that later on seemed bizarre to me (like walking out of a restaurant in the middle of a meal, or leaving town during Thanksgiving and telling my whole family to %&$# off). In those cases, it was like being 2 different people. I've also dealt with severe anger issues and often recommend to people that they find a way to channel it into something aggressive but constructive. For me hitting a heavy bag, chopping wood, or even playing music is very cathartic.
All of that said - I think the behaviorists would probably recommended that you try to understand the warning signs where you sort of get wound up to the point that you can't be rational anymore. If you can recognize those warning signs and find a way to just go sit down - even if you have to excuse yourself to the bathroom or something - and do some breathing and relax for a few minutes, you can basically retrain your mind to calm down instead of winding up to irrationality. It takes some patience and a little discipline, but I can say from experience that it works and is a better alternative to lashing out at others.
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