I often dream about my Ts, both my current and past one. Recently I had a dream that 'shifted' how I feel about my current T. It was really helpful!
I dreamed a 'supervisor T' took me to another T room and told me that I wasn't being honest with my current therapist, and I needed to be if I wanted her to help me. In the room were a group of child parts, and I was angry because I had not given permission for them to be out. The supervisor T told me it was necessary for me to tell current T about them. I didn't want to, but I knew he was right.
So in the dream I walked back to my current T's office. My current T asked what I had to tell her, and I was so terrified I ran. I was flying (you know how it is in dreams) and T was flying after me. I went as far as I could, then came to the 'end' where I could go no further. A very young, very hurt child part was there, and I was 'sandwiched' between her and my T. I knew that these were my two options: find the courage to talk to T, or be stuck with these parts hidden in the corners of my mind for the rest of my life. I looked from her to T and back again, and was overcome by this young part's grief.
I had to make the choice.
There really was only one right choice to make, and I made it. It felt *really* good to commit to a course of action. It is still scary, but I know where I want to be and I know what I have to do in order to get there.
I LOVE helpful dreams like that one!
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