The situation it brings is that he is from another country, i have signed a lot of papers (legal papers) that i am responsible for him. So basically i am not gonna say anything to him at this moment. When i get the money which i should very soon i am going to buy him a plain ticket to go home. My mom will get very angry seeing that i borrowed money from her to do the papers to begin with and it was not exactly a small amount.
My husband has off days and good days, today was no problems, it seems to be okay when we are like watching movies or eating then again neither of those include talking ha ha. I know what i have to do now, i just have to wait for the perfect timing. I am gonna do it because i know i have to do it, i feel it deep down that if i do not do this i will not have a very long life. Mental abuse/Emotional makes you physically sick and lowers your immune system. It also sheds years off your life (stress). I want to be like over 100 years old when i pass, i am one of those people who want to live as long as possible because i love life. When i was younger i never could understand how someone could feel that bad to not want to live anymore until a few weeks ago when i almost did it , i injured myself badly and then hit an epiphany of (What am i doing, why am i going this far and how can i change my life to never result to this again). I know what i have to do now, i just have to wait. I see this all happening by the end of the month, once the legality is out of the way. I know when it happens i will feel so much off my shoulders and feel completely free. i cant wait to have that key.