(((grey)))) I'm sorry you are feeling such anxiety about this. I'm thinking that this isn't the only thing that you are anxious about, and obsessing about. I don't see you as "that crazy guy" and in fact, the use of "crazy" here was long ago a topic in which we decided NOT to use ther term... lol so no fair trying to! lol

That you can sense that this fear is irrational is good... what other fears do you have that you also think could be irrational? Being able to work on this from that perspective might be the way to go... and feel free to bounce things off us here at psychcentral, that way you can allay some fear in the future, knowing that if you tell us something that really does need attention, we'd be sure to tell you up front, OK?