that makes sense. i dont really know what i could do for the cathartic feeling. i played guitar for 12 years but havent in a long time and i used to write a lot. but i dont even feel like i have any time to myself to find something that could be calming to me. i go to school full time, have 2 jobs, have an internship this summer plus summer school plus i volunteer at the humane society. so i dont even feel like i have any time to myself to just kind of unwind. or anything that i have all to myself. feels like everything i do, my bf does with me. i feel bad asking him to just let me do something by myself though. like even going to the grocery store by myself would be nice. maybe thats why this has started so suddenly?

i guess, since he doesnt do as much as me he has a lot of alone time and just doesn't realize that his alone time is my work time and that i never really get time to myself. because i dont feel like ive always been this way. maybe i just need to get away from everything. ugh.