I've noticed that I do things that are caring to myself, I enjoy it now, I feel that same feeling I've always felt with T taking care of me..I guess this is internalisation, by her taking care of herself and me I am learning that is a plesant thing to do for oneself and not selfish or silly. Something simple as getting proper glasses for myself now and using them when I need them. I was talking to a guy at work this morning who is my age and also finds it harder to read papers now without glasses, accept when I said have you got any glasses yet? He said yeah I got some reading glasses from the pharmacy but won't wear them unless I've really got too. I smiled, but It struck how I use to be just like this, nothing was important to me or about me, I treated myself just slap-dash. At first the little things T would do would make me laugh rather bashfully because I thought it was a bit silly, but now I feel entitled to take care of myself and something simple as making sure I got the glasses I need and make sure I wear them is to me good self care.