crystalrose, I'm sorry you are in this situation. As P7 I hope both your old and your new T will help you make the transition. I know it is likely tough to see it this way but maybe this is an important change for your. A chance for you to move into another phase of your life. It is scary but sometimes these changes are exactly what we need to expand our horizons a bit. I am a firm believer that when one door closes, several others open. We just need to let go and see where the next one leads. I hope you can find the courage to explore creating a therapeutic relationship with your new T. It will likely be totally different: not as good in someways a lot better in others. Maybe as you end with your current T you could make it a point to celebrate the struggles and successes you've had together. Create something memorable that you can keep. Maybe a therapy yearbook. Start with a snap shot or drawing of you and your T at the beginning of your therapy. Maybe create a things I am going to really miss page--don't hold back put everything your feeling down in both words, images, colors, etc. Depending on your T maybe she would be willing to put some things down that she will be missing also. At the end of the book....maybe create a hope for the future page. Here you can write all the things you hope to accomplish in the next...10 yrs. Again, put EVERYTHING you can think of down.

It sounds like... you can't stop this change from happening... so I say... take what time you have left to celebrate it.