all i do is think. i analyze.....i think.......then i think some more.......i used to rub my little dog, j.j., at night, trying to go to sleep and i probably drove that poor dog nuts.......rubbing his little side..trying to soothe myself and to turn the thoughts off.......j.j. has gone to rainbow bridge and now i count from 100 backwards.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee