I don't really have an answer why? But somehow I bonced myself back into being happier! It was me who let me be the one to believe in myself now. Wow, I don't think I've got manic depression? I guess talking to someone really helped me again. Everyone don't give up hope, you CAN all find a way out that black whole sucking you in, there is sunshine out the end of it all! (Never going to let myself get low again)