GreyGoose,

The more of your posts I have read here, the more I really hope you have or will get a good therapist to help you get over your anxieties. Some anxiety in life is normal & even good, but when it effects your functioning in life, it becomes a problem that needs professional help. We can help some here by trying to talk you through some of your issues but like you said. that only works until your "what ifs" come back & you start all over.

If the bat situation is so consuming in your life, how many other things are there that are doing the same thing to you? If it were me, I would definitely be in search of a good Psychiatrist that could prescribe a med that can calm you down in order to allow your thinking to slow down & a good psychologist that can help you work through your issues & maybe even help you understand where it all is coming from. I would really hate to see you live the rest of your life in a state where everything is scaring you. Just reading your posts, I can seem to feel how uptight you are about everything, & I really hope that you can find some calm in your life. You don't deserve to feel this way, no one does, & it really isn't something we can fix on our own, only with help.

I hope you realize how much we care & are just trying to help you iliminate at least one worry out of your life, but I'm thinking that probably won't work by what you have said.

Please take care of yourself & hopefully we can at least ease your mind on some things. You seem to realize yourself that you obcess about things, & I hope that you will seek some professional help to take over where we can't.

Be calm,
Debbie