tim..........if you can't come here.......no matter how many times you have to replay your fears.....where the heck can you go?????..yes...all these wonderful people have responded in ways to help alleviate your fears and hopefully it helps you a little......i just want you to know that having ocd myself....i understand the rising up again of the fears and the thoughts no matter how many times you've outwardly expressed them......rest assured that i will always be here to listen to you even if its the 100th time i've heard your story......and i hope that you find comfort at the obvious outpouring of love from PC members....peace.....