I was expecting a new phone to be delivered today - I KNEW somone would knock at my door - I was EXPECTING it - then why did I jump and start shaking when the knock at the door I was expecting came....
sigh...
Then I ring up to book a ticket and get into a panic attack because the guy gives me choices.......
for crying out loud!!!
I had a really good day 2 days ago - I am trying to hold that in my head - but its fading - Im rocking again grrrrr! why cant I just be Fixed!!! better!!! healed!!!
I had a good day and I want another one!!!! NOW!
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet