Someone recently wrote >> Sometimes it's hard to even recognize the feelings or where they are coming from... <<

Read an online article yesterday that struck me, and I decided to think about it at home when I could have some quiet time.
Last night I mentally went over the points of the article, then wrote down something about my own behavior, and tried to relate the two.

To my surprise, tears came up and I cried out loud - not loudly, but aloud - for a few minutes. It seemed like forever.

I was very concerned to realize that I had no coherent thoughts - I did NOT know what my feelings were or where this was coming from.

when just starting out with T, she commented that I had pushed my feelings down so far and for so long that it was as if I couldn't connect with them any more. Guess I have been kidding myself that I have gotten any farther forward, I thought I had but apparently not.