i wish i could tell more. but...

1. the filter is on and doesn't allow me to tell
2. i'm afraid i'm going to get in trouble if i say anything
3. i remembered something horrible, and then someone blurred the memory so now i can't remember anything.

all that remains is the feeling of impending doom... and the spinning... if i close my eyes it just gets worse, spinning and spinning and spinning... trying to write it out but then someone erases it, then i don't remember...

oh dear... i'm sorry i don't mean to whine... i just don't know what to do.

trying to do some breathing, took anti-anxiety meds (that don't seem to work) and now here.

thank you all for sitting here - trying to imagine us all sitting together.. that helps a bit

twilight et al... riding through the storm..