{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Peanut}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} ty so much. I wish I felt that way too.

Carrie, ************hugs**********************

Heather, Heidu, ty for responding.............

I am very glad that it is over with for now. I called my T and it turns out he was ill yesterday (hence the reason I received no response to my email). He was glad for me, but on the other hand he wishes I hadn't scored so well - he knew how upset I would have been and wanted to try to get me to work through those feelings.

He doesn't realize that talking about my failing would not have helped how I feel about myself. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to see myself the way he does, and really believe it is me. It has been so long this way, that I wonder if we are both wasting our time - sometimes the old dog does NOT learn new tricks.

Course my father asked me why I didn't do better??????????? Then he said he was joking and laughed, but I still got paranoid for a minute.