My T appointment is tomorrow! I stayed home from work today because I don't feel 100%. My throat hurts a little, and I called my dr. but he's booked up today. I don't want to postpone my T appt. but maybe I should.

My concerns seem to dissipate when I actually see my T. I mean, I felt so strongly about some incidents that happened a few weeks ago, and that's what I want to talk about. Issues relating to feelings of rejection and loving myself. But I don't think I can "feel the feelings" when I'm there. I sometimes gloss over feelings when I'm sitting in the session, and I don't want to do that. This session is very important to me, and I want to get the most out of it. I'm so afraid I will just "report" the facts to her instead of getting to my feelings, which are by now buried. Does this make any sense? I won't see her again for a few months, so there's a lot at stake. I can always call if I'm distressed afterwards, though.

If I felt up to par, I'd be more anxious about my session. I'm spacing out, will maybe take a nap. Maybe my dr. will call back and let me come in today.