So I went to therapy today and teen totally took over. I am pretty much co-conscious with her and I could watch it all happen but I was powerless to control it. I remember what started it, I think. Not that it matters.

Anyhow, her job is to keep me isolated (and therefore, safe) and she gave it her all, pushing T away, talking about how stupid therapy is, etc., etc. T and I always hug after appts. She wouldn't hug him. He always leaves me voice mails after appts, but I have to call and tell him what I need. She won't let me.

T and I are usually super, super connected. Now I can't feel that connection at all. I think I hate him.

I feel like I am mostly in control, but like I can't wrench this power away from her. She's just totally taken over with T.

What can I do? God, i am SO irritated.