I so appreciate your post. I, too, have had difficulty throughout my life in terms of dealing with people. I suspect for me it has a lot to do with trust issues. Ideally, it would be wise to deal with our issues before getting involved in relatinoships, etc, but that isn't typically how it works.

Changing, is difficult, and I wish that I had the key to that door because I would have used it a long time ago. Instead, for me I moved through life as best I could and find myself still trying to cope and resolve those issues today!

Trusting yourself and other people is a difficult thing, I hope that you can find the love that you so desperately seek.

TJ