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Old May 04, 2009, 08:24 PM
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Originally Posted by _embrace View Post
((((mixedup))))

I can relate to everything you've posted, and I think I am in much the same place you are. For me, I think it is the vulnerability of it all, mixed with a few trust issues. How long have you been in therapy? I have been going for about a year now, and many people have told me that it will just take more time to become comfortable, and to just try to take "little risks" in disclosure to build up confidence. Maybe this would work for you, too?
It's a relief to know that I am not alone...although it stinks to feel this way. I've only been in therapy for a couple months. My husband and I went to marriage counseling last August for a few sessions....and then I reached out to my marriage counselor a couple months ago for individual counseling. So much progress has been made with my current crisis...but now that I am past the critical part (getting my husband out of the house)....I can start to delve into the tougher stuff. The "whys"....I guess I'm just not ready to go there yet....but then I feel that therapy is just wasting my time and money. Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself.

During that one session that I disclosed quite a bit, I felt such horrible anxiety for days....I don't want to feel that again...and that's only scratching the surface....
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