eskie - i seriously wish i could hit thanks a thousand times on here. I'm going to talk to the woman that runs my part of volunteering and asking her if she can find someone else to cover my part of it.

The 2 jobs are to pay for school but that ends in August. I got a fellowship that pays more than both my jobs combined and is doing something I enjoy. Whereas, now, I work at a desk and deliver pizzas. Neither of which are all that fulfilling.

He practically begged me to go with him to STL this past weekend and I finally did stand firm and say no. And, honestly, sitting on my couch, watching the Simpsons and drinking wine was such a relief. I still got my studying done, got to sit at the library by myself for a few hours, and got to just chill out for a couple days.

I told him yesterday that I think the reason I'm freaking out is that I need more time to myself. He said he understands that he doesn't realize it because he has HIS alone time but when he's having his alone time....I'm at work. So I never really get any time to myself. He said he understands and doesn't want me to feel bad for needing time to myself.

Also, this internship is 4 days a week 3 hours north of here so I think I'm just going to go camp out for a few days then come home for a few days which is going to give me a few days a week to be by myself and relax a little. I think this internship will, in addition to being a lot of work, be very relaxing.

Thanks to everyone. You have no clue how relieving it is to find out that it's just stress. The whole time I'm thinking to myself that there must be something horribly wrong with me and nobody else is that crazy lol. So it's really nice hearing that others have gone through this and have experience with it.

I know I pile too much on but I've always been that way. I'm a total overachiever. Growing up I did softball, gymnastics, basketball, volleyball, color guard. Not to mention Youth Ending Hunger, I mentored a child in elementary school, did a few community service groups while never dropping below a 3.5. In fact, Fall 2007 was my first semester I dropped below a 4.0 in college. (my major is Zoology). So yeah.....I know I need to relax lol. I've just never had this kind of reaction to it before.