I don't think my therapy would have gone well at all if my therapist didn't allow me to basically write everything. I didn't e-mail him often, but would write out responses to my sessions and bring them each week. There is no way I could have read the notes out loud either... He read them silently and at first I even made him leave the room to read them. I think the important thing is to find a way to express yourself and this was my way. When it comes to being verbal, I have some deficiencies and maybe even a learning disability. If T had tried to force me to talk, it would have pushed me further away and hampered my therapy. I probably would have ended up leaving without accomplishing what I needed to accomplish. I can totally relate to this. Whenever I had something really big to tell him, though, I always wanted to do it verbally. One big revelation took almost an entire session for me to say just 2 or 3 sentences. I don't think the writing has to do with wanting to not being held accountable for me. It has to do with saying what I want to say the way I want to say it and saying it right.

My first real close friend was one that I made online through email. It was so exciting for me to realize that I had something to offer and had just simply been unable to communicate well verbally. It can be quite frustrating at times. It was as if a light bulb turned on for me. I'm not stupid...I just suck at verbalizing my thoughts. This was a big thing for me at the time.

Try bringing the emails with you and see if it helps.