I'm sorry ((((Kathy)))) to hear how difficult this situation is ~ but I'm a hope fiend so I'm going to write one more thing... did you know there are resources for funds and hotel stays, and corporations that lend their private jets to get people to clinical trials?

It doesn't have to be in your area, as you can get there, stay at hotel or place nearby with funds for your housing, and expenses... this is something I think is wonderful that the corporations in America can do for those who are terminal.

I wouldn't at all be surprised that you couldn't get to Finland thru this avenue.

Anyway, just the last suggestion I could think of...

I know that things feel bleak, and look bleak now.... but there is something about 'hope' that helps us hold out for a better time, or a good day.

I still am fighting my cancer, Kathy, and I've been through the mill, but my saving grace was hooking up with a small group of women going thru cancer in my community, and I found we re-inforce our strengths for each other, and if nothing else can happen for any individual, we find some healing inside ourselves, so that if we don't overcome the cancer, we have the healing and peace within to make each day count, as best we can, being human and all ~

I hope that you find your strength and hope and it carries you to where you may find relief.... and I do get alot out of reading books about individuals who face serious illness and books on nutritional healing foods that help us fight illness, in general, and then specifically.

Another thing I love to do now is listen to tapes at night ... of guided imagery and affirmations, relaxation, and specific tapes to address some symptoms I have, like anxiety, fatigue, and my need for general wellness ... so, it keeps me a little busier in the healing aspects of living.

There is definitely a difference in my life, I find, now that I am moving forward, so that I wish it for everyone.

I understand you are isolated out there, so I hope if anything, you can introduce some new healing techniques into your life... with choices like acupuncture, massage, exercise like yoga and qi gong, whole foods and juicing to help strengthen and heal many aspects of our health in general, traditional chinese medicine (they may have something for you there with herbs as well and the cost is very cheap compared to our medicine)... and the tapes that address symptoms by teaching our minds how to turn things around and start some new beginnings....

Anyway, that's all I have too... I'm sorry. );

If you want to have an affirmations thread or something on wellness, we could do that here if you think it will help.

If you start a thread, I'll be there. You can take that to the bank!

Peace and Healing Within,
Night
xoxoxo