oh, Berries ... *lots and lots of hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. I've been (and to a certain extent, still am) where you are now. My depression's made it nearly impossible to make friends here at school -- even though I've been here two years, the most I have are good acquaintances, and absolutely no love life. The loneliness can be terrible, especially since no matter how lonely I get the depression makes it hard for me to want to do anything about it. I still have days where I'll over-medicate so I can just sleep, even though I know it's bad for me. But there is a bright point -- it doesn't last forever. No matter how many mornings you wake up looking forward to the night when you can go back to sleep, try not to look at this as a permanent state for yourself. I won't say it's easy, because I'm still struggling and barely poking my head back out into the world at this point, but it can happen and it will happen for you. Is there anything you can do to occupy the "in-between sleep" times? Do you have any hobbies, or would you like to take something up? Maybe something simple you can do from home, like some kind of crafts or photography, reading, music? I like to crochet when I'm not feeling well, because then I don't have to leave my bed but I can still see the product of my time and I don't feel as useless. If you can occupy even fifteen minutes of your day with something enjoyable or productive, it really does make a difference.

And you DO contribute -- here at PC, where I've found your care and support so helpful in my own dark times, and I know a lot of others can say the same. Take good care of yourself, you deserve it.