Ty Grayness

and Ty Free2bmee for your kind words, it helps

I am exhasperated right now, my mom flew off the deep end this morning, accused me of doing drugs and looked up my grades online, which means she got in my purse to get my student id to get my information to look up my grades.

I"m not kicked out, my mom admitted she just used that as a threat to motivate me to do good in college, umm no it stressed me out to the point I just didn't do my work because I was a mess...

*sighs* I flipped last night, but my friend Kristin brought me over to her house and made me dinner and we watched a movie till I calmed down, she said it was okay, college is hard, I just needed to learn to buckle down and work a bit harder, but that it is a good thing I wasn't just going to quit and give up and that she would help me learn better studying skills. I felt better after that, and then I got home...:/

My dad gets it, he said I learned a lesson and that he was proud that I was going to college and understood how hard it is and that I just need to work harder next year and that he wasn't going to lecture me, just try and comfort me, he said that I"m hard enough on myself that it wasn't going to help for him to put extra pressure on me.

my mom came in screeching and yelling , and told me to grow up, that I was just being lazy, and that I was hiding things from them and everything. This continued this morning when she woke me up to tell me she had gotten my student id to look up my grades (which haven't been updated by the proffessers since midterms) she then accused me of being on drugs, and that I was crazy, and didn't understand why I was mad at her for invading my privacy, because she did it out of love for me...

I"m so exhuasted right now..I just...I am blank...