Blue, read and re-read our hyena friend's words because they are so so so wise and filled with caring. The people who get upset because you don't take their advice most likely mean well, but don't get it. You are here for support, not to follow every word that every person says. That being said, I 100000% agree with vince that the way to break the cycle is by telling, screaming, shouting. How many of them were there? Eventually if you shout often enough, they will all be gone. One of them is working in a school? There is no way that should be allowed...raise a ruckus, make some noise. I know you sy you don't care what happens to you, but somewhere inside is the little boy who does care. What makes it stop is daylight--it's hard to hide in wide open daylight---bring them and their actions out in the open. So yes, my advice is just what you knew it would be because I care about you and can't imagine the pain you continue to go through. Listen to vince, Blue, he knows what he speaks of.