flaming dagger to the heart
i bleed
flaming dagger to the soul
i die
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t doesn't understand
the pain is so awful
she says concentrate on the garden
and i smile and make small talk
and my heart is crumbling
and a RL friend said
it's the consequence of reading her
e-mail
should not have
i have opened up more hurt for me
and for the constellation
so i am bad again
i was just hoping that
b'cuz she is my best friend
she would know
that i tried to fight to stay
but have to respect the whole of the
constellation
and being with her system is toxic for us.

but does anyone even understand the pain??
it hurts so bad
t doesn't get it
friends don't get it
i am alone
i am the cause of more pain for us
i'm going away now.

nobody