I knwo that's when i need to go but I couldn't go anyway because Iwoke up late and felt ill and yucky and horrible! I'm definately going tomorrow though. I'll make sure i get up.

I need to go tomorrow... Maybe the sleep is because I haven't been eating, but normally when I don't eat, I can sleep better if anything because I'm exhausted. Was horrible ealier because I walked up a tiny hill and got out of breath really quickly and felt like I was gonna faint... All because I'd just been surviving on a glass of squash and 2 litres of water for 3 days :-/

I definately have to eat over the weekend... Don't want to because I know that I've lost weight because I can fit into my smaller jeans... I can't SEE that I've lost weight though I still see fat, ugliness. not fun

Sky's not happy with me because of the OD I let her down.. I let a lot of people down and I know it... And now I'm paying the price for it, which isn't nice... But at least georgie's there for me for now.. It's something to look forward to...

I just hope tomorrow's a better day. I just feel like crying. I need someone here, I need to hug someone taht I know cares and that I know I can trust...

Mandy asked me today if the reason I passed out last night was because I'd not been eating. I said no so she asked what I'd eaten and I lied :-/ I said I'd eaten toast for breakfast. i didn't want her on my back about my eating... I'll talk to Abi about it if anything. I'm sure she'll say something about me losing weigth and stuff. Then she'll probably keep an eye on me at breakfast club and make sure I eat something and comment if I don't... I don't know...

I've almost lost another stone... I can't stop yet