Thank you both for your replys. Its so good to know that people are willing to help me with these issues...Its good to know that Im not alone.

The answer to your question Fool Zero, is between me and myself. It seems as though my mind is preventing me from moving foward. It makes me feel as though Im not good enough to enjoy everyday things...My mind says things such as "You dont deserve to have fun and be happy..." and "you are always going to have to live with these regrets..." I really do want to leave the past behind me, but my mind will not allow it.