Yes i did and i read and was surprised that really, there was very little about my discomfort with her. It was a good springboard though and we talked a lot about things. For now at least, i will keep seeing her.

i think part of my discomfort is that i want definites because i'm so tired of the perpetual loop i'm in with what's real. She has the integrity not to automatically say, yes of course this happened and yes of course this is what it is. i also think i may have some parts wanting one thing and others wanting another. At the same time i find myself questioning everything and that's very uncomfortable for me. Do i even have parts? Have i drawn faulty conclusions regarding my abuse? Part of me knows i have parts and knows i was ritually abused and part of me, again, questions it all. i can go on forever with this and it's driving me f#$*ing crazy.

Thanks for asking. (lol--finger going up and down between lips in gesture of pure craziness)