((((((((((((((Rainbow)))))))))))))))))

I'm glad you got some of your feelings validated, but it sounds so painful to have your needs triggered at the same time.

Maybe I missed it in another thread, but why can't you have regular weekly sessions?

I agree that it would be hard to have random sessions as needed....it seems like to get the most out of therapy it helps to have it consistently...although if you are having fantasies about your T I suppose seeing her weekly might be a problem too.

Sorry I don't have better advice for you.....but I wanted to let you know I read your post and I care.